Here's to You[alternate ending]

You were my favorite part of the day.

You listened to me rant.

You made me feel okay.

You gave me a feeling no one can’t.

You wanted me to be happy.

You made sure I was.

You were the reason I was always giddy.

Like no one does.

Until one day,

You seem far away.

And nothing was okay.

But still continued on to pretend.

But the pain was too much to bear

I told myself I could be better

‘Cause it seemed like you didn’t care.

At that moment, I heard my heart shatter.

Here I am now,

Writing a sonnet just for you.

Moving on I'll never know how.

One thing left to say now, “No regrets. I'll miss you.”

we weren't able to talk yesterday
that usually bothered me.
if i see him online on some social site and not on this messenger,
i would be bothered and annoyed.

those two incidents happened again yesterday.
and for some strange reason, i wasn't annoyed or bothered.

there's something about what is currently happening with us, that reassures me.
something i have been looking for eversince.
i found it. now i can live for days surviving with only thoughts of him and i won't feel sad.

i'm genuinely HAPPY.:)

i'm counting on this.

GoodFriend: i pinky promise you that i will never intentionally hurt gia for no good reason.
SuperFriend: as long as you won't hurt her. i dont want seeing her crying or sad.
GoodFriend: i don't want her to cry or be sad. period. even if i don't see it.

aww. i love the two of you. hahaha.:)

He certainly is the best remedy to my bad day.

Friend 1: You want her as happy as a bee?
Friend 2: ..bees are happy?
Friend 2: if yes, then happier than a bee.:P

i certainly am happier than a bee, despite the fact that my tumblarity went so low. thank you.:)

hey, Blogger

i want an ugly doll.:) haha. the ones that are 2 feet tall. haha.:)

so it has been a long time since i updated this. haha. sorry about that.:P
i don't have any creative output right now. haha. update: June was bumpy, July was a month of tears, August was awesome, and September is not yet over, and so far, I have never been better.:D

visit my Tumblr, please.:)
leave love, dear.

seeya!
gia.:)

i want to get this over and done with.:|
let's break the silence.
remove the band-aid that's been keeping it from healing fully.
so i could be COMPLETELY happy again.

the rain and cold is getting to me.:|

CLE homework Part 1.:)

I have learned that we have a choice. We can make a difference if we wanted to. As they saying goes, "If there's a will, there's a way". If we choose to make a difference, we will find a way. It doesn't matter if what you did was a small thing or a big thing, as long as it's for the good of others, it will be a way to help the world be a better place. So, from now on, I will stop being an observer, and help make a difference.

The song tells us that it's not the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that is important, but the amazing colors that lead to it. The obstacles and problems that we encounter are what makes the journey worth it. We must not let the obstacles overcome us, we have to keep moving. We've got to do whatever it takes to reach our goals and no one can stop us but ourselves. Life's a climb.

Gianina G.Pajarillo 3G :)

i want.

For once, i want you to be mushy sweet.i want to feel the butterflies in my stomach flutter so hard it would really hurt, i'd really want to feel special, because right now, i feel like i'm not that special to you anymore.. 'til then, i'm putting my feeings on hold

to prevent further damage to what's left of my almost-broken heart.

reason.

You're the reason behind all the sappy love quotes, sleepless nights, occupied minds, euphoric moods, and patience to stay online the whole day wishing i could talk to you even for a few short minutes.

Could this mean i'm falling for you? Or is this called infatuation?

Infatuation is often mistaken as love.

i love.

i love your corny jokes,
i love your epic attempts to make me happy when you're presence is enough,
i love how you still drop hints even if we both know the feeling is mutual,
i love the thought of you liking me back,
i love imagining how we could be together physically and not virtually,
i love the feeling i get whenever you tell me you miss me,
i love having a multitude of butterflies in my stomach because i know you're the reason why.

but does this mean i have fallen for you?

a favor.

i hope you still mean what you said,
if not, i hope it grew more than it was the last time you said it,
if not, then tell me. at least i won't look stupid for a longer period of time,
if it is, then at least let me feel.

is that too much to ask?

please hold.

i'm putting you on hold.

BE HAPPY.

YES. today is a new day. i won't waste it anymore.
(credits to jo, got this from her.:P)

tomorrow..

i'm letting go of everything tonight,
and start anew tomorrow.

i'm going to let myself sulk tonight.
so that tomorrow, i'd feel happy again.

tonight, i'll let everything out.
i'm letting go.

running away from my problems and letting go
just for now..
or until everything falls into place..

did i give the wrong answer?

I'm Sorry.
Can i get a do-over?

SIGH.

There's a boy I know
He's the one I'm dreaming of
Looks into my eyes
Takes me to the clouds above
Oh I lose control
Can't seem to get enough
When I wake from dreaming
Tell me is it really love

How will I know
Girl trust your feelings
How will I know
How will I know
Love can be deceiving
How will I know

How will I know if he really loves me
I say a prayer with every heart beat
I fall in love whenever we meet
I'm asking you what you know about these things
How will I know if he's thinking of me
I try to phone but I'm too shy - can't speak
Falling in love is so bitter sweet
This love is strong why do I feel weak

Oh, wake me, I'm shaking
Wish I had you near me now
Said there's no mistaking
What I feel is really love

How will I know
Girl trust your feelings
How will I know
How will I know
Love can be deceiving
How will I know

How will I know if he really loves me
I say a prayer with every heart beat
I fall in love whenever we meet
I'm asking you what you know about these things
How will I know if he's thinking of me
I try to phone but I'm too shy - can't speak
Falling in love is so bitter sweet
This love is strong why do I feel weak

If he loves me, if he loves me not
He loves me, if he loves me not
He loves me, if he loves me not
Oh how will I know

How will I know if he really loves me
I say a prayer with every heart beat
I fall in love whenever we meet
I'm asking you what you know about these things
How will I know if he's thinking of me
I try to phone but I'm too shy - can't speak
Falling in love is so bitter sweet
This love is strong why do I feel weak





this song is called "How will I know" by Hit the Lights.
i don't really know why i'm posting this. a friend told me to listen to this song..
SIGH. i'm sorry guys, i just can't not sigh.

starlight, star bright.

a guy and a girl were in a meadow. they were lying down and looking at the stars.
suddenly the guy asked her,

"what are we? relationship-wise."

the girl looked at their intertwined hands and said,
"i think we're a little bit more than friends?"

the guy sighed and stood up.
the girl was surprised and decided to follow him.
then the guy turned around and asked her,

"can we make this official?"

"how?"

the guy knelt down on one knee, and took out a small velvet box, he opened it and revealed a shiny silver charm bracelet. she gasped. as he said,

"will you be my girlfriend?"

she was caught off guard and all she could say was,

"YES!"

he took her hand and put on the bracelet.

after a while, they went back to staring up at the starry sky and she noticed him staring at her,
so she asked what's wrong, he didn't say anything.

he leaned closer, and whispered in her ear,

"i love you.."

:):D:">:>

"i want to be selfish for once and not give you up.."

word from the wise

rainbows are not slides, they are reflections of light.

random thought.

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, never let it fade away

insecurities revealed

i slip
i trip
i fall.
i lie,
i break promises at times
i ask one too many questions
i am inquisitive
i am too observant
i'm mean.
i am selfish
i am impatient
i am fat
i laugh with wrong reasons at times.
i am physically unattractive
i am never good enough
i am a bad sister
i don't listen
i'm not obedient
i choose not to follow people
i berate myself
i have low self-esteem
i trust too much
i fall easily
i ask worthless questions
i make wrong decisions
i'm struggling to find who i really am
i can't live by myself.
i am too dependent.
i laughwhen i'm not supposed to
same goes when crying.
i'm a crybaby
i am insecure
i am stupid
i am overly sensitive
i eat too much. gluttonny.
i don't care about my sister
i am imperfect.

agree?

kiss me under the pouring rain.

our group made plans to go swimming and we could bring anyone. so i decided that i can bring him so they can meet him. so i finally introduced my guy to my friends. to my surprise, the guys hit it off immediately they became friends. they were so into the game, that they forgot about the girls waiting for them to finish. even him. he forgot about me. he just played with them. so after his turn, i was able to catch his attention, so we were able to talk. we didn't realize we were leaning towards each other already. we were startled when people started cooing and stuff. so i told him that he should finish the game so that we could go swimming already. so all the girls were just talking, and i sat beside the window. so while we were talking and the guys were playing it suddenly rained! so we were bummed out and mad at the boys for staying too long. and then.. all of a sudden.
he pulled me by the hand, lead me outside into the pouring rain.. and he leaned closer, and kissed me. then the rest followed. we danced and played in the rain. the end.:>


my storytelling skills are evaporating.:))

now i'm speechless, over the edge and i'm breathless.

wishing this is forever,
here it is, it's yours to keep.
take care of it, and everything's going to be fine.
a new door opened
a new beginning
a new journey.
i want to go on this adventure with you by my side.
with the flutter of the butterflies' wings to remind us,
and the stars to guide us.
and laughter to make it all worthwhile.

roar squared.

roar.
i typed a lot already.
i just don't think it was good enough to publish.
so i deleted it. teehee.
i need inspiration. i WANT to write something.
i NEED something to write about.
other stuff just seem too private.

*sigh*

care to answer?

If you were to choose between two lovers. Who would you choose? The one who will never give you up, no matter what happens or the one who is willing to give you up just to make you happy?

i chose number 1, he was number 2. cheers.

:)

I kept kissing frogs looking for a prince.

enough said.

found it in postsecret.com.

sometimes, dreams reveal your heart's desire.

it was February 6th, prom night.
her guy had to leave the day before.
she was devastated.
he could've left after her birthday which was the day after prom but he didn't.
all her hard work && preparation to look good on her prom night, wasted.
the perfect prom dress she bought especially for the occasion, means nothing now..



during the dance, all her friends felt how low she was. she tried to be happy for them.
she really did.
but it was just too painful to not have her guy with her on the night she had waited for so long.
one of her friends wasn't able to hold it any longer.
her friend pulled her by the hand and led her to the lobby.
she was afraid that her friend might have gotten mad and felt worse since she feels that she's the reason why their night wasn't as much fun as they imagined it to be.
just as she was about to apologize, her friend pulled out a cloth and covered her eyes.
she felt alone. she reached an all-time low.

then her friend grabbed her hand once more and was merely dragging her to someplace outside the hotel. suddenly, they stop. she felt grass beneath her heels. she froze for a second and didn't know what to do.
her friend let go of her hand.
she was now terrified.
scared that her friend might do anything, she just stood there, helpless.


"can i have this dance?"

chills ran down her spine. her knees grew weak. she knew who's voice it was.
music came out of nowhere. and the blindfold came off. she turned around, and there he was.
they were standing in front of a gazebo. a gazebo she imagined in her dreams.
it was a small yet simple gazebo decorated with lights and flowers especially for them.
and they danced ever so sweetly. he pulled her close as if tomorrow would never come.
he showed her he loved her so. she was let speechless and giddy. she couldn't have been any happier. they danced for a long time, seconds turned into minutes, minutes turned into hours, and they couldn't care less. after a long while, he broke his grasp and whispered in her ears, "happy birthday my love." and kissed her on the cheek. then she woke up.

it was all a dream. It wasn't real.

Dreams like these are the reason, most people would rather live in dreamworld. where else would your heart's desire reveal itself?

symptoms of a love struck?

you find yourself thinking of him.
every time you get an sms, it's his name you want to pop out.
you can relate things or words to him.
you wonder if his thinking of you too.
you want to txt him, but it's going to cost you.
you want to talk to him more often.
you wonder if he'll ever admit it.
you wonder what he thinks of you.
you want him next to you.
you want to fast forward time to when the two of you would meet again(which would probably take months from now.)
you're willing to wait that long 'coz you'll know it's going to be worth it.
every time you try to make the move and admit, you back out 'coz you worry of what his reply will be.
you take lines from a song and make it your status message, hoping he'll wonder who it's for.
and when he finally asks who it's for, you make an imaginary dude's name to answer his question.
when someone teases you that you like him, you deny but in the end you admit to them.
whenever his name pops out in the corner of the screen your heart suddenly skips a beat and chills run down your spine.
even the faintest phrase that you think would have a hint would make you scream and giddy.


it's like the whole world knows, but him.:))
it's funny how i changed all the I's to you's and all the you's He/him/his's.
now, i'll leave you, to wonder who the "you" i'm talking about is.:>

painted nails and card games.:)

i was in tagaytay from good friday 'til Easter Sunday. twas fun.:)
i wasn't used to being with few people on holidays such as this.
yes. we were four families out of nine. the other five are spending it in Australia.

Good Friday
So yeah. woke up early 'coz we figured it would be traffic and we could check-in early in the house we rented in country homes 2. okay. so yeah. on the way there, we stopped over in this hoise called "the white house".:) at first it was suckish 'coz you can see an orange gate on a white wall.BORING. but then the lady who rented us the house, told us to go in. MYOHMY i've never seen a house as beautiful as that. each room had a spectacular view of the lake. and it had a homey feel. everything WAS white. haha.anyways. fast forward. we went to the house na. it was high.:)) three floors.:))

here's how it looked:

anyway, we wanted to eat lunch so we wentout nd ate somewhere.:)) then visited a church, thought it was a mass but relized it was the seven last words, then we went and ate fisballs then went back to the house. my other cousins arrived and we played wii.:) then we played pusoy dos.:> and then ate dinner.:> then we played "heart attack" its a game. where each player gets to draw random card and say the cards in order, ex. ace,2,3,4,5, and so on. if the card corresponds to the next card, like if it was Ace and the random card was an ace, then everyone will put their hands in the middle:)) the last one gets a line drew on their face with and eyeliner. it was SO FUN!

like this fun.:

HAHAHA.:)) ohyeah. be jealous.:))kidding.:P we must play this when we get the chance.:>
then yeah. since my cousin did somethng to my phone to make me have internet, i was online.:>:> tis fun.:)then yeah. slept at 1am. haha.

Black Saturday
Okay so the tita's woke us up at 7am! haha. to go ziplining in people's park. and we've been looking forward to it.:) woot! right before leaving, IT RAINED! haha but then it stopped. kindof. so we went there na. us kids+my dad. and the adults went to the market to buy food. when we got there there were so many people.:)) but there was no line in the zipline. OHA. it rhymes!:)) sooo yeah. we went ziplining. i went with my cousin, ate gelli. then with my other cousin, jared. superman style.:>then we went to straight to the clubhouse in country homes to check out the pool.:) then went back to the house. the adults were already there cooking lunch. so we played pusoy dos, went online with our phones, and played wii.:> then after eating lunch, the cousi of the owner of the house called a person who could do our nails.:> and then she gave us pedicures and put nailar!:) i was the first one so i went with the white daisies. haha. then some of 'em got other designs.:>


then we ate Bake Mac.:> then we played some more and then we went swimming.:)haha. the water was freezing cold at first.:)) then yeah. after swiming, we went back to the house and then ate dinner. and after played heart attack, 123 pass, speed, pusoydos card games.:) while my dad, mom, and other cousin were playing with the wii.:| :)) "people playing darts and gambling(w/o money) all we need is alcohol!" it was helluva evening.:))

their faces says it all.:)))

Easter Sunday
the adults allowed us to sleep in. and we found out it's because they had breakfast in the strip!:(
so we stayed in the house until we checked out after eating lunch.:))
we watched the videos my tito took since like, 2000! it was SO FUNNY seeing ourselves 9 years ago.:))then yeah. played cards and the wii.:)) then went home to manila.:)
it was fun.:)




that's all there is to it.:)
THE END.:P

speaking too soon don't you think?

Now that you're gone,
no more late night txts,
No one to brighten my day,
less of the sweet stuff and more of the how-do-you-do?'s,
No more preoccupied mind,
No more giddy goodbyes and sweet goodnight's,

All that's left is this oh-so sweet revelation and a little girl thinking of what could have been.

:)

You give me the jump start i need to start the day,
You're the reason why i have a smile on my face,
You turn my day from dreary to happy,
You drop the sweetest hints after each tease,
You tell me you like me and then leave.
Things you say come to mind, hoping to get the euphoria back.
When it doesn't it just means i don't like you back.

SUMMER!

ohai.:)
so far this is what i've done this summer:
*Swam with friends.:)
*Swam with cousins
*eat.
*go online
*went ziplining in tagaytay twice.;)
*played all sorts of card games.
*sleptover someone's house
*answered helluva alot of surveys.
*spent my load txting someone.:>
*fell in like with someone.:>
*got my report card
* met a college dude.:))
*played wii.
*went out of town
*went out to watch movies.
*ate.
* got mad. roar.
*though of someone more than once in a day.:>
*saw something that reminded me of something or someone.:)
* took helluva lot of pictures.


and i am still bored. roar. someone save me.